My dilemma in life is, putting the cart before the horse.... I woke up this morning, decided to go against my own thinking, my constant struggle against blogging and i decided to leap... a first step on this new road i have taken to travel... I ask myself why now........
Mmh why now, i recently ended or in the process of ending a relationship that was a bit bizarre at the same time was full of life.. a living.. full of conflicting emotions... a true sense of relationship. One more to qualify my patterns and one more to wound my heart... I wanted to reflect on this one, with out any inhibitions sans fear or fad..
What is most important in our lives? I , without blink of a lash, could say relationship/s. I am engaged in so many forms of relationships... nuclear family, extended family, my team that i spend almost every meaning full day of my existence and with rest of the humanity..
I try very had to be a bystander to observe my role in all these relationships but i fail.. over and over again.. My inability to become both the observed and the observer and dichotomy i have engraved and my inability to quash..
All my life, at least in my adulthood, i have tried to give meaning to my life intellectually, an artificial creation.. every day I diverge from using the natural intelligence... so many years of conditioning to wander from natural intelligence... One has no time to reflect on the knowledge that comes with experience/s... that is my journey... my reflection of a journey that i embarked five years ago, March of 2003……… and wanting to reflect on that journey through embarking on another journey taking a new ROAD..........
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